And It Goes On And On And On

Its Friday Friday got get me more Friday... Okay so its actually Saturday.

Id like to say things have been busy lately but they really haven't been. Last week went by super slow and this up and coming week only has two days in it thanks to thanks giving.

Well I guess I can recap the always unsettling thing in my mind.

Well first one is during the week me sierra and Corlee were making up a fake story of john in English. He thought it was funny and was laughing with us. It was purely a joke and that's all. Well as we were leaving he seemed to be really upset and actually started to cry about it. I felt so horrible. I emailed him later that night though and he said he was okay... I still feel bad.

Umm so Next

Me and Sierra are going to be entering a video contest here soon and I'm actually really excited for it. the grand prize is $1000. SO I'm really hopping we win. Its due in March so were filming a lot over winter break and Mr Allen is actually letting us have the cameras. I'm pumped. were able to submit 3 videos so today at work all we did was think of ideas and we've come up with some really good ideas. :)

Alright so I have a new desire and i just cant get it out of my head. In general, I want to got to Africa. So Ive decided that I'm going to go there after i graduate high school and teach kids English for awhile. hopefully that will get this huge lusting that i have for the whole idea out of my head.

Ugh everywhere i look someones in a relationship. Well it didn't use to bother me but now its really getting to me. I feel more alone then ever. My best friends both have boyfriends and all my guy friends have girlfriends. I'm all alone. It just entirely sucks.

Yepp I just need a break.

Thank god I'm getting one here soon.

Kill a bitch

Ya so if there was ever respect for Andrew my older brother I can most defiantly say I don't have it for him anymore. Me and Andrew haven't talked for a good year or so because he decided he was going to choose a girl over his family. Now that try broke up he's all about family. Well I want nothing to do with him. But to make Matters worst he asked my mom if I would be pissed if he started dating cassie. I wouldn't hate him for dating one of my friends but this bitch is NOT my froend she is my one and enemy. I dislike a lot of people but in reality I only hate one person and it's the bitch that Andrew wants to be with. So I dare him to try and be with her because I will make her life a living hell. That's not a threat. It's a promise.

New life is hard.

Okay so I knew this was going to be hard. I'm struggling a bit with is because it's hard to do the transition from one way of life to a completely diffrent one. Buy I really am trying. I am positive though that I am done with koda and all that crap. Now I'm trying to mend all the friendships I've messed up or haven't really paid much attention too. It's only a matter of time I guess before I can achieve this.

Art and such

Draw a little. Sew a little. Mess with video equipment. Sigh. I have so many different art projects going on right now that it's freaking ridiculous. For Christmas my mom and me are making quilts for the family which is cool and all but it's so freaking time consuming ugh. I'm just so ready to have them all done.